LostMyMeds asked:
Why is it that I was once addicted to Crystal meth and AM close to overcoming my addiction. By that i mean I do crave it but I don’t look for it I don’t try to find it yet, if there is a “tweeker” in the room I CANNOT be in the same room I must leave I can spot them a mile away. It gives me the jitters and I refuse to touch that drug.
Why is it that I was once addicted to Crystal meth and AM close to overcoming my addiction. By that i mean I do crave it but I don’t look for it I don’t try to find it yet, if there is a “tweeker” in the room I CANNOT be in the same room I must leave I can spot them a mile away. It gives me the jitters and I refuse to touch that drug.
Then I tried alcohol (which took me a while because my father wasn’t an alcoholic and I refused to drink even though I was tweeking) and I was like STUCK I WANTED more and more. Now i can go on for MONTHS at a time without alcohol BUT when I start drinking I just want more and more I can’t stop.. I was never like this with my previous addiction..I just can’t figure it out..
Alcohol numbs us. That is why alot of people stay drunk. While you are recovering it would be best to stay away from any mood altering substance.
Congratulations on becoming clean. It is a hard road. I have watched people I know and care about go down the same path.
Comment by Kayla™ — June 30, 2009 @ 11:43 am
maybe you’re both.
seriously, good luck on overcoming your addictions
try NA, AA or some councelling
Comment by de-emt — July 1, 2009 @ 10:07 pm
neither. if you don’t want to be. don’t replace one addiction with another. it’s difficult, but you have to face the problems that cause you to abuse drugs and/or alcohol. Clean those problems up so that you have a better quality of life.
Comment by Damien L — July 3, 2009 @ 7:46 am
I am a recovering heroin addict and I can relate about your struggles with alcohol. I thought if I had a drink, as long as I stay away from the opiates, I would be okay. I didn’t drink often but when I did it was practically non-stop. I thought a lot about it and did everything in my power to get it for me. As an addict, I know you can relate to my struggle. Leaving meth alone but switching to another addiction is VERY common. It is called cross-addiction and it happens to a lot of people. If you come to realize that you can no longer use the drugs you were using successfully and cannot drink because it likely ends you back with other drugs, you are on the right track. I would highly suggest NA or AA meetings, where there are many people who have been in your shoes. If you are not comfortable with meetings, perhaps an outpatient therapy clinic can help. I myself spent 45 days inpatient as a resident of a rehab and I still go to outpatient services three days a week. I only have a 2% chance of success, but that doesn’t mean that with hard work and dedication, I can’t make it. Good luck and God bless.
Comment by Jenny — July 4, 2009 @ 10:03 pm
You are a “former” meth addict. You will always have the urge to start again, you just have to fight it. As for an alcoholic? Potentially you may be. You just have to fight the temptation. Alcoholism runs in my family and at times I feel I can’t control myself. But when I feel the urge to drink I just think about family members who have died due to their alchohol addiction.
Comment by mushygreens — July 8, 2009 @ 8:16 am
I know nothing about meth addiction but you described alcoholism very accurately.
Trust God pray and do not drink.
You recognize the problem only you can take care of you.
alcoholism dosent care how old you are.
Comment by stymie — July 10, 2009 @ 9:24 am
If you want to get rid of any of the addictions, just think at that moment only that at this moment I will not consume any drug or alcohol. If you overcome that moment then you think of the next hour, then that particular day and then week and then month, year etc. You will be free from any addiction .
Comment by Mrudul S — July 11, 2009 @ 1:44 am
Walk into an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting a few times, just sit there and listen. you will find your answer I promise.
Comment by carmen c — July 11, 2009 @ 9:21 pm
Congrats on staying away. That’s the first step. I’ve been a heavy user of things, and you sound like you’re doing really well in beating the meth.
As an alcoholic, that’s my main symptom. I taste a sip and I do not stop. For me, it’s generally I don’t stop for months. If you binge, it’s a good sign that you’re an alcoholic… or at least that you have alcoholic tendencies.
For many people who have addictive personalities, you just want to feel the change. Just want to take something in that will make you feel different – and it only gets worse. Addictions get more severe over time, and one of the problems with alcohol is that it impairs your judgement and can put you back into situations you would normally want to stay out of.
There are neurological reasons for your reactions to other users, and it’s good that you’ve built up a defence. But from personal experience, I know that alcohol keeps you from being sketched out by other things and can get you in trouble. That’s including all sorts of activities you’d never do sober, not just illegal stuff but interactions with people you wake up and wish hadn’t happened.
If you can stay away from it, do it as much as possible. I started off feeling the same about alc as you, and I have drank almost every day for the last number of years. I’m only 23, but if I don’t take my life back there’s not a lot left to look forward to.
In kindness,
Rob
Comment by RobsTea — July 13, 2009 @ 10:39 am