JESSICKA asked:
Im a very depressed addict who recently just completed an 18-month drug program and regained custody of my 2yr old from cps. Although I surrounded myself with non-users I found the urge to just use one more time.I did and loved it! I started off by smoking it everyday for a month until I decided i wanted to inject it again. So here i am finding myself injecting myself a couple times a day! Is there any hope for me? how come i haven’t learned my lesson the first time? is there any solutions i could detox and avoid getting my kids taken from me? also im very scared to detox due to the fact i fall into a deep depression everytime and give up! Any advise from anyone????? HELP PLEASE!!!
Im a very depressed addict who recently just completed an 18-month drug program and regained custody of my 2yr old from cps. Although I surrounded myself with non-users I found the urge to just use one more time.I did and loved it! I started off by smoking it everyday for a month until I decided i wanted to inject it again. So here i am finding myself injecting myself a couple times a day! Is there any hope for me? how come i haven’t learned my lesson the first time? is there any solutions i could detox and avoid getting my kids taken from me? also im very scared to detox due to the fact i fall into a deep depression everytime and give up! Any advise from anyone????? HELP PLEASE!!!
you don’t need advice you have already chosen your path.
Comment by Jenny J — July 18, 2009 @ 2:51 pm
detox but replace it fake the mind kinda like smokers do and by the way do u no jesus christ as ure savior he will save u from them just pray to him ask him to forgive u of ure sins he will save u get u off the addiction and let u keep ure kids if ure ever need someone to talk to about anything email me i will help u in anyway i can
Comment by NightmareSD — July 21, 2009 @ 12:10 pm
You need to go back into treatment for you kids! If not you WILL die. You kids need to be sent to a family member that can offer a SAFE and loving home.. you are screwing them out of a happy life and it’ NOT FAIR to them. Detoxing on your own is more likely than none that you will get very sick and do drugs to feel better. You need to do it where you can be monitored by professionals. Don’t put your kids through this they are the innocent bystanders here!
Comment by *~Sunshine~* — July 22, 2009 @ 7:13 am
My best Solution for you would to be give up your two babies if you love them so much. If you love them as much as you think you do you will fight to get yourself out of this situation and remain out of it. Please just thing of the little ones it is not far on them and they could also harm them selves, this is a very sorry situation you have got your self in.
Please consider ringing the social services they will help you sort something out for your children and help you get better. That is what they are there for. They would rather help you before the problem gets worse for the sake of children, rather than leaving too late and they will have to take them off you for good.
Comment by Little Pigmy — July 22, 2009 @ 11:34 pm
Unfortunately, your addiction has taken over. No matter how much you love your children, you are of no use to them until you’re able to fix yourself. You need to give your children to someone that can take care of them in a loving, stable, drug-free environment, and get your butt back to rehab. I understand addiction, but life is also about choices. You need to get cleaned up and make the choice not to use again. I don’t feel sorry for you, but I do feel sorry for your children. For their sake, straighten your life out.
Comment by Brenda A — July 23, 2009 @ 6:17 pm
I think that the solution needs to be more than detox. If you had been addicted, tolerated detox for 18 months, but still find yourself using you need more.Maybe right now, there is something more constructive than being a stay at home mom. Who can you rely on in your family to help you with your children? How old are you?
Maybe it can be good to revisit another treatment. Not everyone is “fixed the first time through” I urge counceling too. That will help with the depression. Children are affected by drug use in their families and I hope that theres a family member YOU can trust to care for them while you put yourself back together.What was life like before you started drugs? Were you young when you started? my heart goes out to you, and I hope that at some point you will call upon Jesus Christ. All it takes is one time, one prayer and he will change your life if you let him. You are looking for something better, and that is what it takes. Maybe this is your time, to transform your life. It wont be easy, but its totally worth it.
Maybe if you took a few classes, that would help. Staying at home as a mom can be very tough, and its not really for everyone. Maybe you need a distraction, like a part time job and a few classes. Maybe a weekly massage to relax too.
There are tons of places waiting to help ppl like you in there search for wellness. they will pay your way thru treatments if your income qualifies/ theres lots of help.good luck take care/
Comment by aj_300 — July 27, 2009 @ 4:22 am
It looks like you really don’t want to help yourself. You chose drugs over your own kids! I think your kids are better off in a safe environment. Drugs will only get you in trouble. Nobody can help you, you need to HELP YOURSELF!
Comment by CTU — July 28, 2009 @ 8:33 am
I don’t do drugs, but I know people who do and who have gone to detox programs. They say it’s very difficult to stay away even when they have completed many programs. One little slip, and they’re back again. But, fact is, many people do it many times and some succeed. I observed that the ones who succeed are in helping roles, like they begin to work for the organizations*. I don’t know if it is the fact that they have decided to help others that got them through better than others or the other way around, but I know that from the people who have begun to help others, I have not heard stories of relapses. It is not an easy road, but I suggest you try again. Once is not enough if the habit’s been going on for a while. Do it as many times as it takes, while considering joining as part of the work crew. This way you will be surrounded not only by non-users, but by professionals and people who know how to care.
As for your daughter… I also have a toddler and I know what it is like to want my baby with me. But, I think that while you’re doing detox, it is better for her to be with someone, so that she can have a stable lifestyle. Don’t worry about her not knowing you. Get a scrap book ready for her with pictures of you two and letters you write. Make video tapes of you telling her how much you love her and explaining what you have gone to do.. in terms a two-year-old can understand. Tell her how she was born and how you adored her… things like these, so that she won’t think that you’ve abandoned her. The sooner you get healed, the sooner you can be with her. But, until you get yourself clean, you won’t be able to provide for her the way you really want to. And the longer you procrastinate going to detox again, the longer it will take for you to reunite with your daughter. And think about it this way. You’ve only got 16 years left because when she turns 18, she will be living on her own. If you put it off till too late, you won’t ever get a chance to live normally with her! But, if you go now, you’ll still have a few years where she will still be under your custody. Isn’t this what you really want? So, don’t be afraid of the temporary sufferings. They won’t be anything compared to the wonderful time you will have with your daughter when you’ve come through yourself and are helping others do the same.
*The organizations they belonged to happened to be Christian based. I thought I’d point that out, just in case it means anything to you.
Comment by Cecilia — July 30, 2009 @ 4:29 pm